Phoned my mum in the morning as I was going to make some photos on the Thames, my father picked up, and told me that my mum was feeling very sick with chest pain and headaches.

Tryed to speak with my mum over the phone but she was in pain, tried to encourage her and comfort her but is not much I can do over the phone.

I asked my dad to call an ambulance.

No ambulance available. But “don’t call back we will send the first available” dad was told.

This is Romania 2025

They arrived about 30 min later

Portable ecg - they said ok

Heart rate -they’re said ok

but the paramedics adviced mum to be taken to Emergency Services. She agreed to go.

My mum is waiting now in the hospital, alone, for X ray and blood tests results

I’m screaming (internally) in pain. Exactly 1 year ago my wife was in hospital with myocarditis’s

Seeing my loved ones suffering inflicts so much pain.

The fear of loosing someone I love is crippling me.

I am praying and swearing at the same time.

I hope the doctors and nurses are taking care of her, is nothing I can do from here.

I am so easily overwhelmed by emotions and I don’t know what to do with them.

The day was a mess.

I fucked up so many exposures. I didn’t want to go home. Somehow being alongside the Thames was better than being at home.

As I was so distracted and keep making mistakes I remembered that Karen had work at the Bankside Galery so decided to go and see her work. Made some photos and sent her. Karen is such an amazing human being, always helping, supporting and encouraging. I’ll make another post regarding the galery visit.

After the gallery I retuned to make photos but I felt so exhausted. I tryed couple more exposures but the whether started to be playing and it kept changing fast from cloudy to sunny, and when using long exposures or multiple exposures exposures like I do that’s not ideal. In a different mind frame probably I could have dealt with the issue somehow. But not today, around 16:00 I decided that I should go home, I was there already since morning.